Hubbie away and feeling anxious ***Trig SH****

[Keziah]

Hope you can be honest about what happened, why and how you are right now so they give you the right support.

Yes most staff on holiday over Christmas. Hope seeing psych tomorrow is helpful.

[sally]

Hello Hash,

how have things gone today? Is the psych someone you can talk well with?
And what have you heard about the course?

thinking of you especially,
Sally

[Hash]

Ive been given a second chance on the therapy course

I talked honestly in the meeting which had my care coordinator, group therapist, hubbie and Jale my psychiatrist, in and it was really quite helpful but the proviso is on me not self harming for the next three months.

Hash

[sally]

Hash,

that's fantastic that you will be able to continue in this therapy. YOu clearly did well explaining yourself in the meeting.
How are urges now?

sally

[Keziah]

Great news. And although they said no harm they seem flexible which is great.

[Hash]

I really can't harm again as they won't give me a second chance

urges minimal

treat tomorrow

feeling really good at the moment, Peter with me 24/7

Hash

[Keziah]

Great you have. Nice treat to look forwards to.

Am not saying to harm at all, obviously, but they did say before that you could not harm and gave you a chance so sounds like they will work with you whatever happens is what I meant.

It is nice having hubby with you. Good it helps. I find being with people a protective factor also.

[sally]

Hash,

It's good to hear that urges have eased at the moment and this is an easier time for you.

You did really well managing through so you could have your treat yesterday!

Best wishes, Sally

[Hash]

I got my treat, it was some special salon shampoo and conditioner, it was a real treat.

Hash

[sally]

Well done!

[Hash]

Thanks, its been so good having hubbie at home for this holiday I have slept really well, I am just waiting til next week when all the therapy starts again and people start coming round and house group starts I won't sleep.

Hash

[Frodosgirl]

It's a shame that things have to change, have you got any strategies in place to help you when he returns to work?

[Hash]

I find staying in bed or going downstairs and watching tv all day helps the moment I get up I'm in the danger zone

Hash

[sally]

You are doing well managing not to hurt yourself for this time. I'm glad having your husband home with you has been so helpful. And you have been able to rest by watching some TV.

I am praying for you at the start of this new week that you will find ways to get through the days as Peter returns to work. Do you have some phone numbers lined up for if you do start struggling.

Sally

[Hash]

I just stayed in today and had a duvet day.

I don't really have people I can call on although I can call my therapist if I am struggling,

My parents are away in New Zealand so its hard, i normally phone my mum every day.

Hash

[Keziah]

Can you identify why over the holidays sleep was so good and everything else but harder now it is not holiday time - you mention sleep will be worse when people come round and housegroup starts for instance? If you can work out why those things make it harder could you change them? Or do more of what was good over the holidays?

I am the opposite - find holidays worse and non non holidays better, so have tried to put some of the things into holidays to make them more structured which has helped, for eg.

[Keziah]

Can you identify why over the holidays sleep was so good and everything else but harder now it is not holiday time - you mention sleep will be worse when people come round and housegroup starts for instance? If you can work out why those things make it harder could you change them? Or do more of what was good over the holidays?

I am the opposite - find holidays worse and non non holidays better, so have tried to put some of the things into holidays to make them more structured which has helped, for eg.

[sally]

I talk to my Mum every day too and found it really hard when she was away at the end of last year, so I fully understand why you are missing that chat so much. Any chance of skyping your Mum at some point?

A duvet day sounds fine to help yourself stay safe. Well done. I'm glad it's set up that you can phone your therapist if you are struggling. Have you ever been able to give that a go?

Sally

[Hash]

I find I am really anxious when I have to get up early so I don't sleep very well at all in the normal day to day but in the holidays I can sleep for England and have massive lie ins so I am so relaxed and not anxious about the next day.

No chance of skipping my parents they don't understand modern technology.

I speak to my therapist in emergency's

Hash

[sally]

Hello Hash,

how are you feeling today? What have you got planned? Which day is your therapy group or individual session?

Sally