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What happens if I change the heading here?

Postby asc » Tue Oct 09, 2012 2:28 pm

I had a nasty experience yesterday with one of my pets dying, and another going missing, which really distressed me. I'm also anxious about finances and need to budget more - should also help my weight.

Last night and this morning I keep visualising myself cutting.
Last edited by asc on Thu Nov 01, 2012 8:30 pm, edited 1 time in total.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Keziah » Tue Oct 09, 2012 7:28 pm

Hi Asc, I am sure the death of a pet is distressing. That is why I am amazed anyone would keep a pet that doesn't have a long life expectancy as I would never be able to cope with pets not living that long (my dog dying was enough to put me off short lived pets!) - so I think you do amazingly well.

Could you draw up a monthly budget for yourself - then if you one month spend more on something (eg travel/trip) then you could have less of xyz? Or would that not work for you. I am on maternity leave right now and when we knew we would have a reduced income we drew up a new budget (which had to allow for baby costs, so other things had to go!), which has really helped me feel less stressed about things. So some months when there is an additional cost (like lots of baby equipment needed for our house) then I don't fill the freezer full of food and in fact try and use up the tins, packets, frozen food that I am too good at accumulating, or we will reduce other costs that are not necessary. I have also for the first time every ebayed some unneccessary things and the money that I got from that I could use. (But to be honest it was hassle and I have gone back to giving to charity!) With my Mum dying, my Dad has significantly reduced his income, so I have spent much time looking at yearly, monthly bills etc and how much he has for ordinary and exceptional(ie a once a year holiday) costs to help him not run out or be anxious about it, which he says is helping him.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Tue Oct 09, 2012 9:46 pm

I'm planning to sell a few things in our local paper (buyer collects) or on Ebay for the smaller items.

I give my pets the best life I can for the short time they are 'lent' to me. There is a lovely poem on one of our forums called "Lend me a rat."
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Hash » Tue Oct 09, 2012 10:32 pm

I really understand the urges

Your not alone in your struggles.

Keep persevering

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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Wed Oct 10, 2012 12:03 pm

Hello Ann,

how are you feeling today? Are urges still quite strong?
I'm sorry to hear about one of your precious ratties dying. Sounds like the others are keeping you on your toes!

Putting things on ebay sounds a good idea. Hope that works out well,

Praying for you now, Sally
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Wed Oct 10, 2012 8:12 pm

Not at all good today. Anxious about health problems. I see my GP tomorrow.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Wed Oct 10, 2012 8:56 pm

Sorry you are struggling today. I hope your GP is really helpful.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Sun Oct 14, 2012 3:00 pm

Hello Ann,

How have you been feeling the last couple of days? Was your appointment with your GP helpful.

Still praying for you, Sally
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Mon Oct 15, 2012 6:34 pm

Thank you for your prayers. The GP visit went well and I had a good day in Bruges on Friday. Today I had a good talk with my Corps Officers at the Salvation Army.

I'm getting a bit done - not as much as I'd like, but have a bug at the moment.

Tomorrow I have a review with my counsellor.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Eppie » Tue Oct 16, 2012 7:05 am

Wow, Ann, Bruges - what was it like? You never cease to amaze me - even though you've been having a hard time, you didn't give in and mope at home, but have done a wonderful trip.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Tue Oct 16, 2012 12:40 pm

It was put on very cheaply by our church, and is a really beautiful place.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Mon Oct 29, 2012 8:34 pm

Hello Asc,

I've been thinking of you and wondering how you are?
It's been a while since you last posted and at that time you were struggling with some urges. It might be that you've been away and I didn't realise, but just thought I'd say I'm missing you!

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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Mon Oct 29, 2012 8:40 pm

Thank you. I'm away for two nights tomorrow. Still a bit 'so-so- - I don't think the bug has finished with me yet.

Thinking of you all.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Beautifully_Broken » Mon Oct 29, 2012 11:53 pm

Hope you enjoy your nights away and you begin to get over your bug. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Ruth x
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Hash » Tue Oct 30, 2012 6:10 pm

Sorry you have been struggling with a bug,

I hope the days away are a real blessing for you.

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Re: Urges bad today

Postby asc » Wed Oct 31, 2012 7:21 am

Spiritually it's lovely here, but I had a lousy night. The pain was bad coming down - probably because I had been cleaning cages beforehand, and the tramadol made me itch last night.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby Hash » Wed Oct 31, 2012 1:01 pm

Well its good its lovely there spiritually.

I am sorry your struggling with the pain and itching.

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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Wed Oct 31, 2012 2:10 pm

Hello Ann,

I pray the pain settles now no more rattie cages to sort and all the travelling. I pray your time away really feeds you spiritually and renews your strength and hope. Maybe you'll be inspired to write another of your beautiful poems.

Are urges still very present? I only wondered if you would thinking of changes the title for this post, cos my stomach lurches in concern for you each time i read it! but of course, if you are still battling with urges, please leave it as it is!

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Only occasional urges now

Postby asc » Thu Nov 01, 2012 1:40 pm

I'm staying on for an extra day at Green Pastures - it's great spiritually. Still very tired.

I get occasional urges, but haven't acted on them for some time.

I'm so used to forums where I can't change my headings that I hadn't tried before. Thank you for pointing that out.
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Re: Urges bad today

Postby sally » Thu Nov 01, 2012 7:40 pm

I'm glad you are finding your time at Green Pastures helpful and can stay an extra day. i pray you keep receiving.

You can't quite change a heading here, just reopen a new post. But please don't when the one you have is still the one you want! I was only asking.

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