I'm an idiot

[only me]

I was going to have a good day today, i was going to try so hard but i've just messed up over and over again. All my good ideas have just gone wrong.

1st i washed my car. I love my car, i'm 17 and my little red ford means so much to me, your first car always does so i'm told. Now i knew i'd had a bad night last night, and i knew i was looking for destractions, so what do i do? i make up the water for my car to hot and stick my hand in, then once i realised it was hot i didnt take my hand out, no because that would be clever, i stick my hand in again. i feel like such an idiot.

Then its evening, and i love cooking, mainly because it provides me with and excuse to burn myself and i offer to cook dinner because my mum was stressed, i could have done something safe, something where it would have been really easy to keep myself safe but i wanted to cook a stir fry and so thats what i made. and im throwing in the ingredients and splashing myself with all the hot fat.

I just feel like such a complete idiot, i mean who else would go looking for distractions in dangerous places?

i'm also really annoyed because i havn't done any work today and i've got to start my A level coursework or i'll never get it done and i'll end up rushing it last minute and it will be a complete disaster, i feel like a total failure right now, i just want to curl up and hide under a rock and never come out...

arrr...

[Keziah]

[only me]

[Keziah]

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[Bob]

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[Bob]

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[Bob]

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[Keziah]

[nobodytoyou]

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