Final Plans

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If the things I suspect come to pass at work, things will be very hard financially. I still feel that there is a high probability of my taking steps to end my life. I am, however, very concerned about my animals. I am wondering whether to speak to Barbara about whether I can put a codicil in my will so that they will look after any I have when I die, however that might be.

However, I found myself thinking the most scary thoughts which make me feel ashamed, of what I could do if this wasn't possible. I've had other odd, totally uninvited thoughts previously about my animals, but not as bad as this. They are very special to me.

I've been meaning for years to see my undertaker, as I am on a prepayment plan and have an Anglican service planned out, and need to change this to one at the Salvation Army.